Home Alone: Lessons I've Learnt

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Last week my mam and stepdad went on holiday, leaving me on my own...for a whole week. Before this, I had never been on my own longer than a day, usually I would have someone there, like my brother, but he recently moved out, meaning I was completely alone.

To many people this wouldn't even be a problem, but for me it was. At first I was thrilled, I thought to myself "yes! I have the entire house to myself to do whatever I want, whenever I want", and then it kind of dawned on me that this meant I had to look after myself, the house and a cat all on my own. I began questioning whether I could handle this responsibility (which was weird for me because I love responsibility and consider myself an extremely independent person). It's fair to say that this week has taught me a few lessons about myself, so I would like to share them with you.



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Lesson 1: My fears can be conquered

I have a lot of anxiety about a lot of things, and just the thought of me living on my own for a week sent me off the charts. I realised that I had to take care of everything, the washing, the cooking, the cleaning, taking care of the cat, the food shopping...the list goes on. I'm used to looking after myself (for the most part), I often make my own food, I always do my own washing etc. but I don't do EVERYTHING.

One of my greatest fears of the week was the food shopping. Just over a year ago, I was practically incapable of walking into a shop on my own for longer than 2 minutes, and now I had to do this (and if I didn't do it, I would die of starvation). If you have anxiety yourself, then I'm sure you'll understand where I'm coming from in saying that this was going to be incredibly difficult for me. I planned to go on the Monday (the first day I was alone), but I chickened out.

Tuesday rolled around, I had frantically checked if I had everything and read through my little shopping list about a dozen times or more. And I did it! I went food shopping completely on my own. It was only a small food shop, enough to last me for the week, and I was only gone for about half an hour, but I did it!

The moment that I came home I was shaking with happiness. I don't think I've ever been more proud of myself. To many people, food shopping is a doddle, but to me, it was a challenge. And it's really taught me that I can conquer my fears, and it will only make me stronger when I succeed.

Lesson 2: I love food shopping

After getting through the challenge of food shopping, I actually realised that I enjoyed the experience. I love food and I mean, no offence to my mam or anything, but she doesn't really buy food that appeals to me, so being able to choose it for myself was amazing.

I also had a great sense of achievement when I came home and had a fridge full of food that I had gone out and bought myself.


Lesson 3: My cat is the most lovable/annoying creature

I've always had a great relationship with my cat, but since there are two other people living in the house, I actually don't see him that often (sounds weird, I know). Typically, I'm not the one who looks after my cat, I'm not the one that feeds him etc. but this week I had to, and it made me realise two things:

1. Zeppelin (my cat) is clingy af: Since I was the only person in the house, I was the only one to go to when he wanted attention (which seemed like always).

2. He's also annoying af: A lot of people would never say a bad word about their pets, never admitting that they find them annoying, but after this week I cannot deny that Zeppelin is the most annoying creature I've ever known. But I still love him to pieces, he's my best friend.


Lesson 4: Sex in an empty house is, well....great

Don't think I have to explain this one.


Lesson 5: I still need my mam sometimes 

Before this week, I never realised just how much my mam does for me. And now I fully understand why she's always wearing her dressing gown, or why the bathroom isn't always spotless. It's because she's FUCKING EXHAUSTED.

There were times when I didn't know what to do, like for example, I had no idea how to change the cat litter! Seems simple, but I didn't have a clue. I also didn't know when bin day was, meaning our bins remained full because I didn't know when to put them out (as it turns out, bin day is on a Friday on my street).

It's times like this when I realised just how much I need my mam sometimes. Although I enjoy being independent, I'm not fully independent yet and I still need to be taken care of from time to time. So to my mam, thank you, for everything.

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Caitlin x

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9 comments

  1. Hahaha point 4 really did make me giggle, I know how you feel girl ;-) I definitely agree that being home alone gives you a big appreciation for how much your family does for you! I really enjoy food shopping as well, it can be a pain but you can buy all the chocolate mousse you want... within reason!

    Abbey 🌵💫 www.abbeylouisarose.co.uk

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  2. I don't know if I'd cope on my own haha I'm such a scardy cat! But saying that I do love food shopping, being able to plan out a whole week of meals would kind of excite me haha! At least you've done it though, now you know you'll be just fine! Xx

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  3. I would be much the same, I love to idea of being on my own with my own company but I also know I need family comfort. I would definetely love doing my own food shop though!
    Zara xx

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  4. I have found that since learning to drive and have a job that I am food shopping for my fam a lot more and I adore it! I think that I would be pretty similar to you if I was home alone to be honest - number 4 is certainly a pro point hahaa
    Claire | clairesyear.com

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  5. I left home straight after high school and move to the other side of the world, in New Zealand, two years after, so I had to adapt pretty quick! I do love my own company and silence at night when I get home after work, But i love to go to my parents' house too! such a lovely atmosphere! xx corinne

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  6. This is such a great post! I don't think that I've ever been home alone for more than two days. I guess I could learn a lot of things from it. xx

    Antonia || Sweet Passions

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  7. I've never really stayed home alone for that long but even if i do i feel like i would have so much fun haha! great post btw!

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  8. I love this post, so inventive! Also, shopping lists are so stressful to me hahaha x

    Morgan // www.justmorgs.com

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  9. Back in September I started University, and I moved out to halls and so had to take care of myself and I fully agree with your statement - I love food shopping too! Cleaning is always a hassle though but has to be done! I definitely appreciate my mum more now too knowing how much work she does on a daily basis! Great post :)
    - www.roisinslatest.com

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